normality returns... I feel meh about it...

     Life is very normal at the moment. Just doing school work, and looking for a job. I am not sure if I will be able to volunteer at the Yoga place, it looks like they might have filled up all the openings while they asked me to try things out... :( I also don't really know how long were staying...
    Were going to Vancouver again on Wednesday. : ) Just me and Stefan this time. Should be fun. Still been leaving the house at least once a day... which is deferentially better than just siting at home all the time.

British Columbia

Photo's from BC so far.

Borrowed crabs, Sunburns and video games on an Island...

   We went to the harbor and borrowed crabs this morning. None of the ones who wanted to eat our chicken were big enough to keep so we didn't catch any just borrowed them. I sat on the peer and did math... There were also two Seals who were hanging out by the fisher people. They wanted fast food. I think there was a lady feeding them a one point. Ya for wild seals. That makes the wild animal count to 6 dear and two seals.
     After Bowman went to work Stefan and me took a boat to a restaurant on an island. Where we spent the day. Walking and killing monsters (on the game boy... there wasn't anything I could kill with poisons...).  I forgot my hat and sunscreen... so now I am sad and burnt. I also missed Yoga today because it was all booked up when we got home! But my Library card arrived and its much cheaper to get things printed there so yay resumes! I can had more out tomorrow.
     and now back to gameboy... So...well...ya...

Vancouver weekend

this is kinda late... but I haven't been interneting as much lately so meh...
     Saturday we went to Vancouver, we missed the faerie... but only just.... When we did get to Vancouver Stefan and I went to the Aquarium. The kinda have a sine problem... there will be one... then you walk for a bit pass like  3 or four different paths before finding a new sine telling you to turn around back from where you came... don't even ask Stefan about it... it really frustrated him. We had even worse problems with that on Sunday... we did find the place though and saw Fishies... :D yay fish.
     We had dinner at a nice burger place and found the tail end of a street party. Vancouver and Nanaimo shuts down really early. The mall here closes on weekdays at 5:30!! Like what? How do you make any money closing that early? We spend less than 30 min at the casino itself Stefan lost some money... then played gameboy (dragon quest IX)
     Sunday we were going to go to the PNE but I didn't think there was enough time so we just went to the place for circ de sole. We spend an hour and a half wondering trying to find food... we found the Olympics village (the place where the athlete lived when the Olympics were happening), which is kinda like really fancy housing, and kind like fancy empty space that has been forgotten about... there was no food anywhere... we also got stuck with watter between us and what looked like a place to find food the only way across was a big highway bridge... then luck being with us we found an Aquabus! A little boat that takes you across the watter. It was cute. We did manage to find food at the bottom of a hotel and really quickly eat it before going to our show. It was fun. Then we went home, more boats and more gameboy!!
     Vancouver has also taken the green fad to the next level. It annoys me enough already but in Vancouver they have deiced to blame everything on YOU! YOU waste to much energy. YOU use too much gas. YOU produce too much carbon dioxide. YOU don't recycle enough (even though we as a Provence makes it way hard for you to recycle...) Its kinda annoying... It got to the point where I wanted to tell everyone who mentioned how bad I am to the world everything I try to do... and it makes what I understand of the recycling program even more crazy... you pay a deposit on can's/glass/maybe other stuff and a Recycling tax. Then get the despot back if you bring the cans back... but with 20 cans + some glass and plastic I got like 1.30.... I don't know how many people will recycle in order to get one droller and thirty cents...  I don't even think the moneys worth it I just cant stand to throw it out!
   Anyways that was Vancouver... So...well...ya...

Zoom...

     I think I am over the jet lag. I slept in till 10 ish today, I was tired all over this morning. I think kitty's feeling better too.
     I biked down to Yoga, and had my first class there today. Then biked back to the mall and had dinner with Stefan. It's about a half hour trip. No longer than it used to take me to get to Kensington market. Which is defiantly cool, its also basically just one road all the way there. This biking plan is going to make me really fit thats for sure. Since your going up a hill or down one. Theres no flat on this island. At the moment I kinda have to walk the bike 1/2 way up some hills but I figure it wont be like that forever.  
     Going to Vancouver tomorrow. Be back Sunday night sometime. I need for the library card to get here so I can print a better copy of my resumes and start putting those ones out.
     I fell asleep when I got home today so I am going to make someing to eat.
so... well...ya...

Geting things done... :D

     So yesterday was fairly productive, I got a library card, explored the immediate aria, and handed out 15 resumes personalty and put out about 10 online. So I am happy with that. I just am very impatiently waiting for my cell phone to ring.
     Today I took the bus to the biggest mall in the aria, it was about 20 min. So not too bad. Theres one more mall to explore, and I didn't bring resumes with me today so I'll have to go back to the main one anyways. More importantly I got a bike!! It's so nice when plans work. Step one get a bike, step to find a Yoga class, step 3 job.
     As far as finding a Yoga class, I kinda found a interesting place. Theres a yoga studio that offerer's free classes in exchange for volunteering to clean 4 hours a week. I have been e-mailing them and I am going to go check out the place tomorrow I'm excited. I really like the idea. Stefan said that apparently its a common practice and I think thats cool.
     I'm getting distracted now by so you think you can dance.... so...well...ya...

And so it begins…

                                                    3:00 (Toronto time)

    I’m on a airplane. And so is kitty… :D Noel’s doing ok, being very quiet. She didn’t like going through security very much.  Too many people, to many noises. It was probably the first time ever that she wanted to go back in her travel case.

   I like flying sooooo much!! I don’t think the girl beside me does… she’s had her head in her boyfriends lap since we took off and doesn’t look very comfortable.  I saw windmills!! They were spinning… and lake Huron. We are flying over lake Michigan right now. Our world is very tiled… it’s funny how fake it looks… like a really bad  tiling job on a background for some reason.  I am currently flying at an altitude of 9906 m and a speed of 674 km/hour. There is 2770 KM to go to get to vancover. . It’s a little bumpy because of the weather but not too bad.  I don’t really want to sleep but I didn’t sleep yesterday and the plane is defiantly making me feel sleepy.

                                                                                                                        4:33 (Toronto)

     The map says I am 18 m west from Devils lake. I was looking at it as we passed and it was odd. I saw a lot of land like sections with water in the center. There’s a lot of little bodies of water down there. I guess where k-town is 1000 islands this is 1000 lakes… J

     There was the strangest looking fields back a little when I just woke up. They were cut in a very complete circle’s. You could see the square of land but in the square there was a circle… I don’t know why that would be a go way to cut any crop… I really think that whoever did the texture map down there is kina crazy… there’s lots of detail… but searesly… crop circles? What are you bored or something? Your texture mapping Manitoba… It doesn’t need to be that crazy… :D  Speed is 753 km/h and altitude is 10363 m… I wonder how close that makes me to space? I’ll google it later… it looks a little more real down there now… I still think I could have made it look better. More real.

5:19 (Toronto)

     I found Saskatchewan. It’s really un interesting… like REALLY, really uninteresting… but I did find it. lol

             3:05(Vancouver)

     I see mountains. Its Alberta underneath me right now. The roads are very different that Ontario. In Ontario it was very square. Everything thing is a grid. But what I can see of roads (now its mostly mountains… but before the mountains) it’s a lot more smoove curves. Drifting around the world. In Ontario we have taken over. We have turned the world under our control. Into strict a strict grid. But here the world won’t let humans take over. Its all rocky and mountainous that we can only go where the world lets us. From what I can see the most condensed places of human ness down there are where the earth flattens out near the water. It’s so close on the map!!  Altitude is 10972 m and speed is 777 km/h.  There’s about ½ an hour till we get there, I think we are in BC now… there’s still mostly mountains down there. 

     On a different random thought… I am sitting at the back of the airplane right near where the washrooms are. Even from the MOMENT I got on the plane there was a line for them. Only really breaking the first hour when we had turbulence. Why don’t people pee before they get on an airplane!!! It makes sense people!! Didn’t your mother ever tell you to pee before you leave on a long trip?  An well… threes 30 minutes till we land now… why not just wait till we get there? 

Book Review, Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

I had decided to do a book review of all the books I read this summer...I have been reading more complicated books lately and I think it might help me explore what I understand about them more. I meant to do this earlier but since I am  going to see the movie in a few hours I will do it now.

Eat, Pray, Love

By: Elizabeth Gilbert

     It’s very easy to get overwhelmed by our day to day lives that we forget about ourselves. Elizabeth Gilbert, the author of  Eat, Pray, love was as susceptible to this in her life as any of us. She was overwhelmed by what tradition told her that her she should want in her life. A marriage that had fallen apart and being a successful writer with a very busy lifestyle..  She decided to take a year away from all this, in a way that is not always possible for people. She was able to spend a year traveling to Italy, India and Indonesia. Taking this time to rediscover who she was and what she wanted with her life.

     The book is divided in to three parts, one for each of her four month stay in a country. It has also been divided into 108 tales which is symbolic in its connection to a japa mala ,which is a  spiritual string of beads used all over India to aid in prayerful meditation.  The Structure of the book works very well and I like how the author let the spiritual influences of her journey be reflected in every aspect of the story even just the way it was presented.

     In Italy Elizabeth went to just enjoy herself. When she was going through her divorce she decided to learn Italian for no reason other than she wanted to. It had always been something she wanted to do and she really needed something in her life that was hers and hers alone.  Going to Italy was a dream come true for her, a chance to live and breathe the language that she loved and to explore her freedom and the little things. She calles her trip to Italy and exploration in Passion, it was a place to enjoy life, enjoy the beauty of the world and to enjoy the food.  

     Where Italy was her exploration in passion, India was for devotion. She had found direction through a Guru who she had originally discovered when she was dating a guy during her divorce.  This boyfriend had been both wonderful and troublesome at the same time.  Yet he had led her to her Guru. When she went to India her original plan was to spend one month at her Guru’s Ashram and then explore the country. Looking for herself and strengthening her connection to god.  She ended up feeling that there was more to learn at the Ashram then she expected and spent all her time there instead. Leaving with a freeing feeling. I enjoyed the part of her experiences in the Ashram the most.  It is very interesting place. A place to just completely loose yourself in devotion to your faith. Then come out the other side knowing more about yourself.

     In Indonesia, Bali she looked for Balance. A way to take what she learnt about Passion in Italy and Devotion in India and combine them into a life. A life she could take back home to the US with her and keep once she got back to the real world. It’s all good to find yourself but you don’t want to lose it. She worked with a medicine man, learning his ways. Made friends with a Healer lady who was also divorced, a rarity in Bali. Her new friends brought her back into the real world. The world of having fun and going out dancing. She met a new man in places she didn’t expect who pushed her to let herself love again.  

    All in all the book was very inspiriting. It shows us, even me who isn’t as old and worn out as the author felt,  the importance of knowing who we are. Of keeping ourselves as a priority in our own lives and not living for the people around us.  It makes me want to find a way now, while I am 24, to understand myself and to nether loose myself in the everyday world.  I am very happy for the Author that she was brave enough to take the chance and go on this adventure, all so that she could share it with the world and give us all hope that it is possible for us to understand ourselves too.

(P.S A comment about the movie:  I liked it a lot, I think it’s not really a “movie theatre” movie. Would be much better at home in comfy clothes with a glass of wine.  It also felt very long to me. But is very true to the book.)  

Green Fad.... thoughts

     I hate the green fad. Yet I really do honestly believe in what I do to try to make a difference. I try hard to recycle everything I can, if there were more products I could buy which didn’t have packaging I would ( I really dislike packaging… the worst is when things are wrapped twice… like they have a plastic wrapper inside a box or something!! Can’t you just use one or the other!!! /sigh)  I was using cloth bags before the by-law told us too… I really like having the green bin.

The thing with the green fad that bugs me is that it’s started to feel so fake. The $5.00 bags that tell the world “I’m green”… the plastic mugs and bottles that starbucks sells and then everyone forgets at home…  I think a part of us all agrees with the concept of them… but having them with us when we need  them nether quite works.

     I have recently discovered LUSH and instantly fell in love both with the quality of the products and the attitude of the company . I have also tried a few of those fancy fast food places (Letrei, Fresi, Aroma) and the food there is SOOOO much nicer. It doesn’t make you feel like crap for eating fast food. The negative being that you really do pay for the quality you are receiving.

     To be honest I am totally cool with paying for quality. It just sucks that it’s hard to be healthy when you have no money… people complain how North America has become so overweight… but when a proper meal costs twice as much as food that fills you up but isn’t very good for you… can you blame us? I honestly believe there isn’t a person alive who doesn’t believe a fast food burger is shit for you. Yet we all eat it. They smell good, taste good when you’re eating them (though a real burger will always taste SO much better you never remember that at the time… ) and they are real easy…  There aren’t a lot of people who will put as much effort into getting good (reasonable priced) fresh food. When I was in Toronto groceries took me 2- 3 hours most of that was traveling all around town.  It always seemed like I was the odd one bring food from home to work for lunch…

     I guess this whole thing is a rather large ramble… but that’s just what I have been thinking about today. The whole thing started when I had a mint lemonade at Aroma, it looks like the crazy macha stuff… that awful,  “I am drinking this because its good for me” green… but it tasted so REAL. Like the mint I would eat out of Mom’s garden (Cody, our dog used to love it too). Not like the harsh mint that you think of when you order a drink that is mint. I also ate dinner from Freshi today (shish I can spend a little on food out when I don’t have to spend it on groceries :D ) it has the same kind of feel. This is real. This food won’t make my stomach feel heavy and like shit. It’s kina my goal to not eat things that make me feel like shit… I think we have put up with that for too long and should except food that costs a little more in order to get it. 

(and ya... still not doing so good on the wright every day plan... meh!!)

So...Well...Ya...

last Raven event for a bit...

     NPCing is defiantly work! It was a fairly light weekend event but I'm still really tired. It was kinda a odd weekend since no one showed up to play on Friday night, it was almost like a strange day event... since most of the players came yesterday and didn't even stay over night on sight or anything. But lots of stuff happened, monsters died and the world did not explode... its much different NPCing the playing as a PC. You are kinda floating around playing all the parts and seeing some of what happens but not really catching everything... only half seeing what happens. I guess its like that when your in a play too... you only really see whats on screen when you are on screen. 

     I had a random idea of an interesting hide in go seek game today. We were NPCing Elemental creatures, and the way they work is that they hate ofter creatures of the element that is opposing to them, so fire creatures hate Ice creatures, and Ice hate fire (or Stone vs Lighting). some crazy thing was happening and we were elementals who were fighting each other. It made me think that it would be fun to play a game where everyone took an element then went hiding you each had abilities that were different but equal in power and the goal was to hid from your enemy wile trying to find and kill them before they killed you... I think it could be kinda neat. 

     I also find it fun when I am an NPC and I am helping the players do something for some reason. NPC monsters have neat powers and its kinda fun to be on the PC's side for a bit instead of against them. 

    Thats it for my last Raven event for a bit, I hope its not my last event of the year... but there is a chance that it will be... I am going to try to LARP in BC but I am a little worried because the LARP I found is a bit more complicated and kinda seems less newbie friendly... but I am all for trying :D I am sad I will miss Raven though... I am really enjoying the story of it all. 

     I am sleepy now so its bed for me. Last night as I was going to sleep all I could feel was packets being thrown at me... oh so manny packets... 

So...Well...Ya...

Raven

So I did manage to finish the arm bands... haven't really done anything as far as the T-shirt... oh well I will bring it and show it too him my pattern. It's odd because I feel about the least excited for this weekend than I have ever felt for Raven. I feel so meh lately... its also odd because I can't find the NPCing  cloths I had last event and my pajamas and Mary Ann's costume... I am hoping the costume shows up in the costume box... and maybe the other stuffs at auntie Corrine's?  Thats my only real guess right now...  Ok I am going to finish off what I need to go before heading out.
I will write something tomorrow it just wont be posted till I get back. It's the writing part that matters, creating the habit and all that.
So...Well...Ya...

busy day

It seems like every Raven weekend I give myself 1000 things to do. I made a cake today. Not even a Kraft one at that :D it had a lot of different dishes... and i did some sewing too. Made more Kings hard armbands because the other ones I made were kinda small... still need to finish them tomorrow though. Also designed a LARP T-shirt today... but don't think it will be ready to give to the guy this weekend...
As much as I like driving I really like being driven more... I am totally for those robot cars that drive for you... all the benefits of having a car, the freedom to go where you want and all that jass... but the ability to play gameboy in the car at the same time...
Anyways its sleepy sleep time for me.

So...Well...Ya...

so...ya... bad start

   So I guess I kinda skipped yesterday... bit of a bad start... but that just shows you why I want to start building the habit now before life gets busy and interesting...
   I was playing with the dogs today. It's soooo hot and they really just can't take it that well... so we were playing with the watter from the hose... They are big dogs a border collie and 1/2 Border Collie, 1/2 Shellie so I really can see why people are scared of them sometimes... they really were chomping at the watter... but it was kinda funny because they were trying to catch it so much I think they forgot to breath... :P silly dogs. and they will just play and play and play... even when they are crazy tired out they will still keep playing if you will play with them.
   There is a kitten here right now too. If anyone wants a kitten let me know because hes really cute. We decided to call him Black Jack, like the blackcurent candy from england. Mom started to call him Jelly bean because he's just non stop wiggly but we decided we like Black Jack more. Hes started to enjoy chewing everything... but nothing for an extended amount of time... he looses interest in one thing and finds something new really fast. Though he doesn't go zoom the way Noel does.
   She's still my baby, we were cuddling today. I was trying to study and she decided that I needed to cuddle more... then I fell asleep :S  it was so hot its hard to focus... bleh... I had intended to sew today too, and make a cake for Raven on sunday... its just WAY to hot to bake... almost to hot to do anything right now... and yet the old people still dislike the "draft's"... / sigh

so...well...ya...

21 days.....

     They say a habit takes 21 days. So let this be day one.  In 14 days I go to BC. Who knows what I will find there but it will be interesting. I want to get into the habit of sharing what I find there. So if I start writing every day, even just a little, now my hope is that it will be easer to continue to write when I get there.
     Right now my days are a little unexciting. It feels like I am in the middle of a loading page, the percentage bar slowly filling up... I keep looking over at it and see its hardly moved since I last looked.
     I just finished a good book... I is called " Eat, Pray, Love" and has a movie coming out from in a week Friday.  Maybe I will do a proper book report tomorrow... right now I am not feeling it.

So...Well...Ya...